(re)Defining Me?

There´s a lot of certainty and uncertainty before my "life changing" trip in April-may. For those who don't know what that's all about I'll just tell the long story to unwrap my thinking.

I got dumped in December 2012, I loved my gf and even though I have been pretty clear of what this whole self-improvement journey involves and that she represented a new period in my life at the time it all started, I knew (or rather assumed) it would end.

It's natural and normal.

Ongoing vicious behaviors came to both of us around each other. Somehow at certain points id turn stagnant and comfortable and basically become a chode. She would lose attraction and then drama started which re-hooked her and " manned me up" temporarily. Only for it to happen again and again and again.

In June 2013 one of my best friends dies and for some reason I start getting more female attention than I can handle. Five girls or more constantly texting me, including my ex. Because I have so much attention - as it would naturally happen - I don't feel as attracted to my ex as I did,

What surprised me the most is that the power balance in this case was totally on my side this time and still the same vicious loop happened with her. Which basically told me that "enough is enough". Something has to change and something has to change forever.

This is where Toronto 2014 came up. I had nothing more to do here and I could just hit up a foreign country and work on my "game".

This is the tricky part.

What am I learning? Just game?

What's lifestyle changing game? How much can be achieved in 5 months?

Do I need a plan? Yes.

What am I trying to achieve?

What happens when I get back to my country? Can I ensure long term change? What do I have to do to do this?

So many questions that I'm pretty sure will pretty soon have an answer. And fun times are to come.

Talk to you later,
Gary